When I was informed I didn't make the final cut, it was a blow. I needed to process that I actually didn't make the cut. It was very disappointing. Looking back now, I can still feel the disappointment, although I never had hopes of even getting as far as I did. My, how my emotions changed!
So now, here I am again. I was informed by someone that the time was coming, but I couldn't even think about it. I wanted to go so bad to Sweden last year, for a variety of reasons, but it didn't happen. I am ok with it now, as I am, again, trying to plan a trip to Sweden later this year. Kind of similar to how last year started though...
I was surprised though, when about a week ago I received an email from one of the casting directors I interviewed with, asking me to re-apply! I told myself, it was just a formality because I heard from others who applied for the show last year and made it to the final cut, that they too were invited back. Of course they wanted to know if I received the invite also and what was I going to do.
One of these people decided not to try again and I replied I was going to throw this out to my friends on Facebook and see what kind of response I received before I made up my mind, but I doubted I would try again. I subsequently learned that someone I thought should have been invited to try out again, was not. So now I am not sure what the criteria was in sending out the reapply e-mails. The Facebook responses I received along with someone not receiving an invitation to reapply led me to think differently about applying.
Let me just say that I can not explain everything here, experiences since the try out for the show, emotions, etc. Yes, there were lots of emotions beyond the application period. Yes, the show's first season was a hugh success. Yes, I am proud that I was a part of the initial process, and had the opportunity to have a one on one interview with the directors.
I can tell you though, that I have changed my mind about the application. I decided to send it in, and apply for the second season. Again, I do not plan on making it to the finals, nor the show. I have had lots of time to reflect on my experience last year and I have realized a couple of things that may have hurt me in that final interview. One of those things I can do something about, but the other I can't change.
Bottom line is, like many other things, I won't know unless I try. I do not want to look back at this as a should have, would have, could have kind of situation. My thoughts and ideas about some things are different this year. I have a different outlook on the situation than I did last year. Right now I felt the need to apply.
Trivia ~ Do you know the name of the actual show in Sweden? Do you know what that title means?
I would like to thank Anonymous for sending me the link to the "Casting Search for Americans with Swedish Roots." I did not let the comment through on the page you sent it as I prefer to share the link here, in an appropriate place, to share with anyone else who has Swedish roots and would like to apply! I would love to know who you are anonymous, please don't be shy!
Trivia answer ~ The name of the show is ~
Allt för Sverige which translated means All for Sweden
Final comment for this post ~ I noticed I did not link up all of the posts for the series Part 1-16 of last year. I can not do it at this moment, but I will try very soon to put them together in one post. For now if you are interested in reading the posts and my experiences from last year you can find them listed to the right under "Blog Archive" in March and April of 2011.
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